Looking for the Eucatastrophe

Days circle in an endless haze Sunrise to sunset full of regret Wandering in a careless daze An endless set I want to forget In the confines of this dark maze Confined in fate’s net to life unmet Though the days pass by Night always takes the sky Darkness will descend As though a dreadful end Yet stars will remain And He will forever reign Though death does mar this frail form of life When light does fail the heart need not quail There is still hope amidst the strife Love remains hale and tells the great tale Where truth cut sharp as though a knife And blood formed gale brought end to the wail Days will still pass by And night will take the sky Darkness will descend But it is not the end The stars still remain And God above will reign

“Why?  Why did you have to do that?  Do you see how we’ll suffer?” “I didn’t mean to, and besides, I didn’t even want to.” “But you still did it!  Why?  Anything that was left of Innocence is gone.  Dead and gone.” “I said I didn’t mean it.” “It doesn’t make a difference now.  What’s done is done.  I just wish you would control yourself.” “I want to, if only you knew.  I desperately want to, but I don’t even know how anymore.  It’s almost like I can’t remember.” “Well, I tried to help, but you wouldn’t listen.” “I know!  I know!  I’m trying, it’s just, I don’t know.” “You already said that.  Look, I’ll try to help again, but you have to fight even when it doesn’t seem serious.” “I can control myself.  Don’t worry about the small stuff.” “No!  You can’t do it like that.” “Why not?” “It’s like cancer, it will multiply.  Can’t you see?  One glance can deal the mortal blow.  It doesn’t take more than a second.” “It can’t be as bad as all that, besides, I don’t do it all that much.” “You do

Talons of darkness dig in deep, Deep into my heart. Shreds of light fall asleep, What good will this reap? Blood covers my part, What a miserable art. Guilt consumes, As I choke on the fumes. Guiltless I stand again, Worse than I was then. Corrupted and content, All life now so spent. A wretch for what I've done, I watch the setting sun. Numbness in my mauled mind, Mind that is not mine. Looking far behind, What made me so blind? I drank a sinful wine, Now worthy as the swine. Guilt simmers, As I watch the water's glimmer. Guiltless I stand again, Worse than I was then. Corrupted and content, All life now so spent. A wretch for what I've done, This pain has just begun. Wings of reaction reach the height, Height of love and blood. Scrambling for light, Why do I always choose to fight? Now I surrender to the flood, Washed of the clinging mud. Guilt inspires, Repentant amid the watch men's fires. Guiltless I  stand again, Innocent