Looking for the Eucatastrophe

Smoldering in dingy dungeons deep, I lay in fitful agonizing sleep. So far away from the hope of light, Having no longer any battle left to fight. For every purpose dead in bitter sin, No hope of escape could ever I begin. Yet, He who stand on glory's height, Saw fit to find me in his loving sight. Plunging deep into caverns of dark hate, He rescued me from my dreadful fate. Born of a virgin of the human race, He came to earth to take my wretched place. Descending down to earth not a moment late, He came to His own wrath and anger sate. Setting all who would follow free, He healed the sick and made the blind man see. Showing outcasts hope they might believe, We from him the most blessed gift receive. Dieing for all upon a cursed tree, He came to fulfill all He did decree. There on the third day He rose from death, He came back and once more drew breath. And now He waits for us above, We the objects of His endless love.

Ocean waves crash about my life, Currents fill my mind with strife. Cherished sanity begins to dive, Only in death can I be alive. Through shattering surrender, I survive. I wonder if it's true, Can I trust You? The water rushes faster, Waves pound against my chest. A tool of the Master, He always knows what's best Water closes far above my head, Filling my lungs, soon I'll be dead. Bracing for panic, loosed inside my mind. Now distant air, seems dull but kind. What is it that I'm sure to find? Can this be true? Forced to trust You. The water rushes faster, Waves pound against my chest. A tool of the Master, He always knows what's best. Eyes opened, see my life in full. Realization, my former life was dull. I sink into the water's greatest deep, Those above the waves wander in sleep. They do not know the promises You keep. I find it all is true, I can always trust in You. The water rushes faster, Waves pound against my chest

Small things set a heart alight, Emotions never are quite right. Tipping scales fall in place, By a mere flutter of your face, Dreams both large and small. It seems the whole world will fall. As consistent as the sky, We laugh, we yell, we cry. Stop 'n' ask why? Why do we obey a lie? Hate burns deep in veins, Even quicker when it rains. At a simple moments bicker, Hearts still burn and flicker. Regret jumps up like a weed, Just as fast, it goes to seed. As consistent as the sky, We laugh, we yell, we cry. Stop 'n' ask why? Why do we obey a lie? Why, why do we do this? Why do our hearts burn and hiss? Only when fully in God's grip, Will we not fall or slip.

How dark must be my thoughts, Before You won't send your light? How depraved must be my mind, Before You won't follow me inside? How far must I run away, Before You won't seek me? How much must I have died, Before You won't raise me up? Never, and never, You say to me. Until the ending of the mountains and the sea. Your love is unrelenting to its mark. Always You have come for me. Now come and save my heart.

The whisper in your skull A rumor of your fall Broken hopes reside Reason left aside The rising of a wall Fear The poison sinking in Fear The chains found deep within Fear, frozen in your sin The beginning of a leak That which makes you weak Undermining truth Troubles from your youth That eerie little creak Fear The poison sinking in Fear The chains found deep within Fear, frozen in your sin The darkness seems to grow The tumble will not slow Lost among the black There is no looking back The less and less you know Fear Frozen in your sin

I hated You, With every fiber of my being. I loathed You, Though I was never seeing. I fought You, With every battered breath. I denied You, Even unto darkened death. I feared You, With everything I could feel. I dreaded You, Hoping never once to kneel. I saw You, Riding out to catch me. I betrayed You, Not wanting this to be. I cursed You, Bowing at your throne. I beheld You, Knowing I was alone. I killed You, Thrashing in my deadly sin. I told You, Lying with a dark grin. I witnessed You, Rising from the darkest grave. I blasphemed You, For all the love You gave. I loved You, Knowing nothing but fleeing. I felt You, Cradling my very being. You saved me From what I could not believe. You loved me, Before I could even breathe.

I harbor hate, I live for love. Darkness haunts my fate, My heart is set above. Endless cycles of disease, My cares begin to cease. Dueling wills take their toll, I need Your love to make me whole. I'm a living contradiction, Conflict deep within. This duel causes such friction, Buried in truth and sin. My life feels like a fiction, Waiting for life to begin. Malice boils deep, Peace soon takes hold. Lies burn and seep, Truth drives out the cold. Crippled by my hell, Into grace I fell. Dueling wills take their toll, I need Your love to make me whole. I'm a living contradiction, Conflict deep within. This duel causes such friction, Buried in truth and sin. My life feels like a fiction, Waiting for life to begin. I need God's love to make me whole again.