Looking for the Eucatastrophe

Let me be, But hold me close. I am free, But now alone. I cannot see, But I'll still run. Bittersweet and broken, I am lost again. I forget what You had spoken, And run into a wall. Dreading being awoken, As I toss in nightmares. Bittersweet and broken, This is who I am. Let me be, As I self destruct. I am free, But not my mind. I cannot see, Blind to the truth. Bittersweet and broken, Can I get out? I forget that You had spoken, The key was found there. Dreading being awoken, But called to live. Bittersweet and broken, What have I become? Let me be, But please don't. I am free, You said so yourself. I cannot see, But You'll guide life. Bittersweet and broken, Hope still waits ahead. I forget that You had spoken, Silencing all else. Dreading being awoken, I'll see me for once. Bittersweet and broken, Only to find the truth. Let me be, You never will. I am free, The truth returns. I cannot see, But trust remains. Bittersweet and broken, I'll find out once agai...

As I look upon the sunrise, I leave behind the past. As I see behind the lies, I find freedom at last. No darkness can accuse, As evil I refuse. As I look upon the sunrise, I look to what's ahead. As I gaze at the blue skies, I leave behind my dread. Civility returns to me, By His blood I am free. As I look upon the sunrise, I remember a Creator. As I listen to my cries, I stumble like before. No longer bowing to hate, This is not my fate. As I look upon the sunrise, I see my scars dissolve. As I tremble and rise, I feel the blissful salve. Eyes cleared of the dirt, Joy comes from past's hurt.

The world grows darker and darker in my eyes, Falling, shattering, breaking, I am blind. I fall, falling deep inside my mind. My eyes look up to the darkened skies, I fear none shall ever hear my cries. Breaking, I know I can't hold. Falling, My grip is fully gone. Screaming, fear rages in a fit. It's right now I've reached it, I've reached my breaking point! The breaking point! The beauty of the fall. The shattered hopes! The last trip before the all. Piercing light falls down upon my brow, Bleeding, needing, heaving, I do ache. I cry, crying as I break. Knees hit earth as I begin to bow, This is it, I know I need you now! Breaking, I know I can't hold. Falling, My grip is fully gone. Screaming, fear rages in a fit. It's right now I've reached it, I've reached my breaking point! The breaking point! The beauty of the fall. The shattered hopes! The last trip before the all. The breaking point is reached, Dark skies do fall down. ...

Heartfelt scars deep inside, Bear memories of remorse. Times I wished I died, Lost without a course. A battered heart remains, Numb to the brutal pains. Memories like chains, Binding me to pain. Dreams like stains, What is it that I gain? Corroded corridors of thought, Rotting hope's wonder. My desires once would have fought, But now lie torn asunder. Tears stain eyes with hate, Giving in to a darker fate. Memories like chains, Binding me to rejection. Dreams like stains, Remind me of infection. Is that the light of sunrise, Or of another searing wound. I look unto the open skies, Before my hope is drowned. Bitter darkness blinds, As day to day life grinds. Memories like chains, Binding me to death. Dreams like stains, Stealing my breath. Free me from this prison, This place of solitude. I've made my final decision, Making ashes my food. Repentance is hope, Tackling blood stained slope. Memories like chains, Freedom I will find. Drea...

A broken will concedes, Sprouting from deep seeds. Will surrendered now, Giving into needs. Ask the question how? Broken bonds go loose, Old thoughts to the noose. Bittersweets the cost, Losing I refuse. I miss not the lost. Freedom found in chains, Seeds sprout from rains. A new world begins, Free from dark stains. Saved from my sins.

I hate it, This dark addiction. Kill it, Before it causes more friction. This is my monster, My fatal affliction. Like a knife to butter, A razor drags across my arm. In a fitful frenzy I shudder, Intoxicated by harm. I hate it, This dark addiction. Kill it, Before it causes more friction. This is my monster, My fatal affliction. Like a snake into the ground, A needle crawls into my vein. Released from sanity without a sound, Heightened over pain. I hate it, This dark addiction. Kill it, Before it causes more friction. This is my monster, My fatal affliction. Like a blow to the head, An image of flesh numbs my mind. Morals lie broken and dead, Relationships now grind. I hate it, This dark addiction. Kill it, Before it causes more friction. This is my monster, My fatal affliction. Like water draining into sand, Pockets are emptied into chance. Dreams are far too grand, Crumbling in circumstance. I hate it, This dark addiction. This is my monster, My fatal affliction. ...

A pale sickly full moon rises, As a firefight of syllables begins. We both let fall our disguises, Transformation results from sins. Unleashed is the beast within, And blood curdling howls begin. A flash of shining teeth and fur, The moon reveals that which is true. A silver bullet is my only cure, As my claws lash out against you. Unleashing the monster deep inside, There's nowhere for the beast to hide. Words like fangs pierce deep, Lust for pride in a blood rage. This diatribe I sow and reap, I belong locked inside a cage. Spreading curses through bloodied fangs, Darkness haunts every word that hangs.

Awaiting devastation, Preparing reform. The world sleeps, Lost in indecision. A darkening storm, Looks on as it weeps. Soulless apparitions, Haunted by devastation. Wishing to find reform, And shelter from the storm. Lost without reason, Amidst the darkest season. A merciful light revealed, Burning as it heals. Darkness runs away, As truth is sealed. Pain now feels, As it sees another day. Soulless apparitions, Haunted by devastation. Wishing to find reform, And shelter from the storm. Lost without reason, Amidst the darkest season. Burn within my heart, I long for peace from dark. Devastate my wretched sin, Reform me as I restart. Let me heed the hark, Of my life reborn within. Years of darkness lie behind me, But within You I can be free. Devastated and Reborn.

Arise!  Take up sword and shield! The battle rages on and on, Through wood and plain and field. The days for cowardice are gone. Man lies smoldering in the dust, Take up swords and wipe off rust! The battle lines have been drawn! Look to the East, it is the dawn! Where once blades did impact, Words take up the resounding cries! These are matters of the heart, As pens cut the way through lies. Struggle not against the blood, As it pours down like a flood. Let crimson wash away evil ties! Roar heavens tear open skies! The victory has already been won! Debt is dead, buried, and denied! The final blow was of the Son, And death itself has now died! The battle rages onward, Carried by His Holy Word! Saved for every time I lied, Comforted even as I cried! Arise!  Take up sword and shield! Fight in wood and plain and field!